Stand Still & Move Forward

My horoscope was so right on today I just had to share it:

At the moment, there's nowhere else you'd rather be than home, and while you can't click your heels together and get yourself there, probably because of a work situation, all you can think about is shuffling through the front door, pulling down the shades and curling up with the cat on the couch. Fade to black. That's not the kind of thing you'd ever do, though--unless you'd really had it with the entire world.

Yup, that's kind of how it's been lately. I'm Dorothy clicking the heels of my ruby red slippers together over and over, but it's just not working. Don't get me wrong, nothing horrible or catastrophic has happened in my life lately. I've just kind of had it with all the little annoying things and stupid people I have to deal with every day. What I need is a real vacation AND a trip home.

Things are happening right now that I'm not ready to discuss yet until a few things are ironed out, which is why I've become an anxiety-ridden ball of stress. Even complete strangers are asking if I'm OK and telling me I look tired. Sadly, I don't think a real vacation is possible anytime soon mainly because of the "work situation" mentioned in the horoscope, and I may not make it home until Christmas.

In a previous post I talked about initiating change and starting new things, but I'd forgotten how stressful change can be even if it's something you're willing to embrace. It's scary and exciting and nerve-wracking and completely necessary if you want to move forward. I just wish I could fast forward through a couple of things and get to the part when I finally go on that much-needed vacation where I wake up to the sounds of a gentle breeze and a small bird's chirps, stretch out in the biggest, fluffiest, most comfortable bed I've ever slept in, and then open my eyes to see the most beautiful view Mother Nature has ever created.